I don't want to talk about it.
But I will. Because I will move past it.
I was doing good until Sunday. Saturday I was down 2 pounds from last week. I ate no carbs for breakfast and was doing fine until the party. I had chili with hotdogs, cookies and candy and ice cream and chips...
I think I let myself get too hungry and I'm craving sugar. And I did not practice enough self control. :(
Sunday, I had only eaten an orange for breakfast (I know better). We went to a restaurant who's menu was eternally long. I saw nothing on there that was going to help me stay on track while trying to order for my kids and sharing a menu. So in a hurry, I ordered something I wouldn't typically and ate all of the disappointing, oversalted plate.
When we got home, I felt like I was still hungry although the plate had plenty of food after I'd already eaten more chips and salsa than usual. I ate a no-bake.
Then we went over to friends house and I took leftover no-bakes (to get rid of them). I ended up eating SEVERAL. I am craving nuts and chocolate specifically. I KNOW that this is a sign of needing magnesium but am not taking any currently. When they served peanut m&m's, I ate some.
So looking back over Sunday, here are my thoughts on what went wrong:
I didn't make breakfast count which resulted in being too hungry and over eating.
I'm craving but not taking care of the problem.
I believe the 'hunger' I felt after eating Sunday lunch was actually thirst. I know I was really thirsty that day and did drink a lot of water, but not before eating no-bakes.
My clothes are tight. I feel terribly uncomfortable physically. Mentally I feel like a failure and emotionally I'm just nearly depressed about it. Instead of giving up, I'm trying to formulate a plan. I WILL NOT gain the weight back. I see this as a temporary problem.
It's a fresh new week and I will move on!