Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Update 4/28/15

After three months going to the gym and continuing to try to eat as good as possible - eating raw as often as possible, eating low carb as often as possible, and trying to watch my portions at all times - I have lost 49 pounds. Funny thing is, since I've been going to the gym, weight loss has really stalled. However, I'm down to a 12/14 and still going. I was stuck at 45 lbs lost for weeks until I got sick and didn't go to the gym for over a week. I was still eating the same but during that time my weight loss got going again. I know that working out can stall weight loss but I am still a little confused about that. I'm trying to not overthink it because I'm still happy with the results whether I'm losing inches or lbs.

To recap, I lost 50 lbs a few years back, over the course of a year. I gained it back during the next 18 stressful months, plus 5 lbs. I got started losing again due to working at a job where the employee eating area made me lose my appetite and then, using the same way of eating that I've already addressed within this blog, I have continued to lose.

Realistically, I eat a raw meal about once every day or two. I eat a low carb meal every day or two. I try to limit the foods that make you gain weight. I try to eat more of the foods that make you lose weight. I try to be reasonable with the amount of food that I eat overall.

I think what helps the most is the mind change. I now would rather find a way to eat to lose weight than be overweight. The results I see are very motivating. I'd rather lose weight than drink that Dr Pepper. I'd rather lose weight than eat the donut on Saturday morning. I'd rather lose weight than have French fries with my McDouble. I'd rather eat a salad as a side with my steak to fill me up so I don't eat too many rolls.

There are all kinds of tips and tricks I use to lose weight, but ultimately I have learned this:

I have to want it bad enough.

Update 2/25/15

After losing 50 lbs in one year, with a combination of months of WW and a slower loss without WW, my dad's injury not only halted my progress but the stress caused me to gain most of it back quickly.

We moved to Amarillo, Texas in July of last year. The stress and bad eating from the process of moving and living with my mother-in-law for 2 months left me 5 pounds heavier than I'd ever been before. 

I started working as a server in September and as a result had little time or desire to eat. I worked an evening shift and for 3 months almost never ate a meal after lunch. My stomach shrunk and even when I did eat, I wasn't eating very much. At times, I would eat so little that it was derailing my weight loss efforts. I lost 30 pounds or so during that time and became inspired to start going to the gym shortly after I stopped working there.

Attempting to eat as many meals mostly raw or low-carb, I have continued to lose weight and have, at this point, lost 40+ pounds. I've been going to the gym and working with a trainer (which is included in my $10 a month membership) well over a month and have lost little to nothing during that time. However, I have lost inches. I have not measured myself but can see the difference in my clothes. I can zip a coat that before had never even met in the front. All of the clothes I wore prior to going to the gym no longer fit. They're all baggy on me now. I wore a size 22 when we moved here. I now wear a size 14/16.

My stress level these days are much improved and I am on a journey of self-improvement. I've been seeing a counselor for quite some time now (one before we moved and a new one now that we're here). I've never been quite as happy as I am now. I believe being true to yourself, addressing the things that make you sad or stressed, and getting rid of negativity, even if it's difficult, is essential to weight loss and happiness. 

My original goal was to learn to lose weight and teach others how to lose weight too. Life sometimes squashes our goals and plans but I'm learning to roll with the punches and I'm now enjoying life again. Weight loss isn't everything. If it's making you unhappy, it isn't worth it. 

"This above all, to thine own self be true." - William Shakespeare